Unknowns

I will admit that I am often overwhelmed by all of the unknowns in our future. This past weekend has been especially hard. I can honestly look into the future at 2 months from now, and not have a clue as to what life will hold for us. There is so much up in the air, and so little that I can control. I am trying to trust that everything will work out, but at times I do get overwhelmed.

Brian, Andrew and I traveled to St. Louis a week ago and spent a weekend looking for a place to live. Because we don't know how long we will be in St. Louis, possibly only 3 years, we have decided to rent for now. Trying to find a rental home that met our needs was challenging, especially since I don't have a job yet. Techically, we should be able to live off of Brian's salary, but it would take some changes in many areas. We did find a house that I feel will give us plenty of room, and we are working on getting the rental agreement right now. I also had an interview while we were in St. Louis, and I am awaiting the results of that. The job would be an incredible step for me, and I would feel very honored if they offered it to me. But...more waiting until the decision is made.

We also closed on the sale of our house 2 weeks ago, and we'll just say that it is good to have it behind us. The turn in the housing marked in the past 4 years didn't do us any favors. But we have learned a great deal from the experience of being homeowners, and I think when we buy again it will hopefully be for our dream home.

Sometimes I really hate the roller coaster that we are on, moving every few years and not knowing exactly what is in our future. But I know that I am lucky to have a supportive husband and wonderful little boy, and for that I count my blessings.